Category Archives: About Me

Sweet Jealousy & the Waiting Game



I’m not usually a jealous person. Okay, sure, sometimes I do envy Carrie Underwood’s amazing legs…. and I MAY have been known to covet my sister’s wardrobe a time or two… BUT, in general, I am a very content person. I am blessed with so many wonderful people and things in my life.

Still, since my match fell through, I’ve found that little green monster trying to creep into my thoughts.

I see others posting about their upcoming match meetings then a few days later exuberant over a match, and I feel a twinge of jealousy. Why not me? Where’s my perfect match? This really is a VERY quick twinge. It’s almost immediately replaced by complete happiness for them. I genuinely want all of my surro sisters to have an amazing journey. It also made me stop and think about how my own postings about my first quick match might have left others with a visit from the green monster.

A friend reminded me this week that the quickest match isn’t always the best match.

I’m striving to focus on those words this week while I wait, (not too) patiently for word from my agency about parents. Throughout my time with the agency, they continue to be amazing. Jill has been just an email away and empathetic to my feelings. I just have to continue to believe that this journey will get going when the time is right.

In the mean time, we are staying busy with school, work and church. I was just promoted at work and am now enjoying a raise (yay!). I have to send a copy of my new paystubs to the agency as soon as I get them so my file can be updated. My kiddo is LOVING third grade. It’s a big change from second grade, but her teacher is wonderful and they do lots of projects and educational trips, which is perfect for Miss P.

I’m also enjoying the things I won’t be able to when I (hopefully) am able to carry for IPs… sushi is a favorite and so is strawberry and spinach salads with bleu cheese. Yummy! 🙂

What “off limits while pregnant” foods do you miss the most?


The Phone Call and Catching Up…


Less than twenty-four hours after I submitted my surrogacy application my phone started to ring. Checking the caller ID I saw that it was an Illinois number. I held my breath and said in my best ‘I’d make a great mother’ type voice, “Hello?”

It was someone from the agency calling! Kristina told me they’d gotten my application and everything looked to be okay so far and asked if we could schedule a time to talk. I made the appointment for the following afternoon, hung up the phone and sat in my desk chair staring at my computer screen. I’d read that some agencies can take longer getting back to you. I couldn’t believe I’d been called in less that 24 hours!

I immediately went back to my previously made lists and started double checking to make sure I had all of the questions I wanted to ask written down. I ended up adding a bunch more. That day seemed to drag on and on.

The next day I waited for the phone call, tried to focus on work and watched the numbers on my clock tick closer and closer to 11:00 am. By 11:05 I had started sweating. Finally, the phone rang and it was K. We talked for about an hour about my application, more details about myself, partner, and daughter, the process and everything involved, etc. Every so often she would stop and let me ask questions. It felt like a very natural conversation and less like the intense interview I had anticipated.

K was amazing. She was warm and friendly and very knowledgeable. I felt a great connection with her. She had delivered twins four weeks earlier as a GC (her second surrogacy), so I felt even better knowing she had first hand experience. At the end of the conversation she told me that I was approved and to expect a welcome email shortly. She went over what would be in it, requesting medical records, scheduling pap smear, and all those fun details.

After my conversation with her I felt even more certain of my decision. Then came the beginning of phone calls! I called and made an appointment (June 9) with an OB/GYN a friend recommended to get my annual exam and pregnancy clearance. I went online to request my prenatal and delivery records from my previous pregnancy with my daughter. I’ve read it can be a timely and frustrating process trying to get them. Fingers crossed it goes smoothly.

That brings us to where I am in my journey thus far. While I wait for my doctor’s appointment and records, I am researching hospitals in my area and reading LOTS of blogs. What blogs do you love? Leave me a comment and let me know!. 🙂

I can grow babies…


“Because, I CAN grow babies.”

That’s what I said when a friend asked me why in the world I was considering being a surrogate.

There are so many reasons that led me to consider being a surrogate.  Good reasons. Valid reasons. Inspiring reasons. Selfless reasons. And, yes, even some selfish reasons. But the main reason was simple and easy right from the start:  I passionately believe that I can help someone have a baby and I very much want to help another person or couple achieve what has come so blessedly easy to me- parenthood.

My daughter is my greatest accomplishment and my pride and joy. I can’t imagine where I would be today if I hadn’t become a mother nearly eight years ago. To be able to help another person become a mom or dad is truly miraculous and I feel blessed at the possibility of being able to do it.

So, after years of thinking about it, I have finally taken a leap of faith to try and make this happen!!!

I applied to be a surrogate on May 13, 2014.

This blog is intended to be an outlet for me to record this amazing process from start to finish, whatever outcome that may be. I freely admit from the beginning, I am not a writer and I’m completely new to blogging. I never even kept a diary as a kid! With that in mind, please excuse any errors or flaws you may find. I can promise you one thing, though, I will always be honest and hold nothing back… except, of course, any information that may be confidential or a breach of privacy. 🙂